Lost in a sea of my own sin
I struggle to breathe, I try to swim on my own
But I drowned in my uncertainty
Human pride is what's holding me back
Rip this pride from my heart, tear it to shreds
Is my pride keeping me from the truth?
Am I the Pharisee that I've tried so hard to stop?
Questioning my every motion, am I just in my cause?
Or just a wolf in sheep's clothing?
How long can I keep running circles?
I've wronged you every day of my life
I built the cross on which you were slain
You forgive, but how you ever forget?
(How could you forget?)
How could you forget?
My hands are stained with blood
I will never be washed clean
I live in denial that you are King
Where do I stand?
I'll stand on faith alone
Lost in a sea of my own sin
I struggle to breathe, I try to swim on my own
I sink deeper and deeper
With every thought of mine
Where is all the hope that these congregations talk of?
Is this what I'm called for or just a fantasy of mine?
Am I losing faith or just learning what following truly means?